I’m thinking back on my degree.

What was once an inferiority complex.

Is now a feeling of joy & glee.

Perhaps it was worth the fee.

But I’ll tell you what means the most to me.

It was what my mother got to see (seeing me graduate).

So now I have to keep moving forward in honour of her.

After many years of giving her lots of care.

Her memories, love & energy are with me every day (in some sort of way).

This is just part of my story in a way.

So now I’m thinking back.

Whilst still moving forward.

For the first time in a while I feel like I actually have something to shout about.

Instead of being a laughing stock.

I’ve soul searched, reflected and learnt from mistakes.

And now I’m getting the breaks.

So music absolutely stimulates the mind.

Well, that is what I absolutely do find.

As well as being a form of pleasure.

So the experimenting has helped lead to this.

That’s why I’m currently feeling utter bliss.

It’s the little things I think back on.

Going to Aldi to get some bits in.

Cooking my meals after a long day on campus.

Those songs & podcasts energised me whilst I got some pasta & veg in the pan.

I shared student accommodation with numerous flat mates from different cities & countries.

Some were quiet and some were ready to go out to parties.

It was very diverse to have lived with such an interesting bunch of people.

From a travel point of view, it was also something new, in a way.

Getting those 4 buses a day in a different city got me to uni but also helped get me here.

I’m not just talking physically, I’m talking mentally too.

This drive fuels me.

So when I feel a bit flat I need to think about the following.

Keep at it lad you know you’ve got what it takes.

My focus is back.

I’m getting momentum again.

I don’t want to feel like it wasn’t enough.

Or feel like it could have been better.

Those experiences that I gained were the real take aways.

So now I’m using them to make things happen.

I’ve got a fire in me once again.

I’ve got to build on this.

I’ve got to show how flexible I am.

I may joke a lot, but I’m not a joker.

Because it’s time to get over the line again, like I did before.

Stop dwelling on those exams of the past.

Think about the presentations & the translation module that you did well on lad.

But some things are bigger than a degree.

I’ve learned so much from so many different aspects.

Now I’ll apply them to other things.

In the present day and moment.

To keep moving forward.

Who’d have thought such fantasies could be applied to these new realities.

It’s a combination of things that add up (for me).

So I’ll keep at and keep an open mind.

Keep persisting, it’s absolutely worth the grind.

And it’s ok to keep changing.

And it’s ok to change your mind.

And it’s ok to go against the grain but yet being adaptable too.

And it’s absolutely ok to broaden your horizons.

You can never stop learning & you can never have enough new skills.

Especially in a world that is always changing.

So I’m digging deeper than ever before.

I need to stay focused and to explore.