I am going at it hard, constant job hunting. But it hurts. I really want to ignore how I am feeling right now, I actually want to cry. But I will let this out for a minute then it is back to fight mode (not literally). Ok, here we go, how am I in this position, after everything that I have put in, and yet I feel like I am the bad guy. How has it got to this, it feels like no matter what I do I will not get anywhere. I have gone above and beyond, then above and beyond again, then above and beyond again. I never stop, best part of 20,000 steps yesterday, walking the cold streets then asking around about jobs in warm shops, glad to say I got cvs sent off via gmail when I got home. Did some DuoLingo – bit of Spanish – use it or lose it. Anyway, back to it.