It can be surreal sometimes – getting into (or in to) so much flow but it works. I do not particularly want to do Sunday Times types of articles – as you may well now by now.

But this is my style.

It is a balancing act, I want to do more conventional posts at times.

And I do.

I may look to get out of my comfort zone even further.

I don’t know.

Got my studio here – let’s see – it really is as if I do these to talk myself into doing things.

Perhaps I do.

It is weird how the little occurances occur sometimes – I have noticed this for years – like hearing a song at a particular time.

But I need to stay focused – this is where I find sometimes having a bit of edge helps.

But if it looks like I am doing some of these posts to influence or to change reality then I am not so sure – as I am still trying to make some money! It is not as if I live in a mansion and have swimming pools either – flippin’ eck having a couple of quid to get the bus is as rich as it gets these days but at the same time I do have strong foundations and things at my disposal. Plus, I appreciate doing the little things.

But writing has helped me to get stuff off my chest – even if it has felt really scary to be so vulnerable but I think that is how you get somewhere in some ways.

So I think I have managed to tackle some issues or to be more confident off the back of all this (writing stuff down, or typing to be precise).

Other things have helped too – but I have to keep pushing on.

But yes, I am trying to have a bit more filter but in some ways these posts are a reflection of how I am feeling in that moment.

I have felt a bit naked after writing some of posts but I know to get where I want to get to I need to push on – having a bit of edge helps too I think.

Plus, I am like an open book these days.

Some things I deliberately do not go in to too much detail on because I want some boundaries – plus it can be fun to add a bit of mystery eh.

But I am actually trying to be more clear, particularly if I want to have a bit more of a business head on these days.

Well, I am going to edit this now. And post.

Well in a minute.

Another thing that it is liberating for me is to look at the numbers – to see what works – to get more of a sense of reality.

Sometimes I deliberately don’t look at them though!

I think in a strange way I do not want to this to get too big but I have the mindset to get more visitors now – I think I have became pretty fearless in some ways.

I still find it astonishing how I have had visitors from so many different countries but at the same time I aim for a wide audience.

I worry if I get too much flow – there needs to be some of struggle sometimes I suppose – I don’t know.

I think these days I am embracing a bit of edge here and there but being able put out positive stuff is cool too.

If I had to read some of these out in person I think I’d struggle but I could give you the gist.

I think that is where using myself as the content works – as in dyspraxia stories or whatever.

Plus, I do usually spend a while editing these posts.

Now it gets published (hang on).