Reading those psychology books – from professor Steve Peters and Damian Hughes – The Chimp Paradox & 5 STEPS To A Winning Mindset respectively – helped me to stop self-distruct. Even though I used them to partly help me win FPL leagues, I think I definitely took a lot from them in terms of how to deal with emotions better when it came to friendships, among other things too. But I need to rebuild again, because I’ve been an idiot. And I am sorry about that. But it is time to move on, it’s gone. I have also done loads of brilliant things too, which I am proud of, it is almost as if I’m human. In fairness, it is partly circumstantial, but I know I need to take responsibility now. It is not that I was not taking responsibility at all, or have not done so before, because I absolutely have done. But it is doing it properly now, again. And doing it consistently. So I am writing to myself as much as anything to remind myself of that, I’ll keep at this psychology lark I tell you.