Now I know how to channell it well. It is a balancing act. I want to represent a lot of good but also be a bit daring in some ways. And that is ok to do I think. It is difficult to be vulnerable but I am doing it. I definitely think I am more about being about more in control now. I just know that nothing will change unless I be proactive. Got to make things happen. After all, it is not as if I am going to work in a bank or anything is it. So I have to do what I do.