[ Dyslexia-ly updated – yeah I just made that up for a laugh –  on 25/09/22 at 12:46. ]

I’ve just a 40 minute walk. I’ve had a shower. I’m getting dressed properly soon for my shift.

I’m shorts & a sitting off in the house top at the minute.

I’ll get moving soon soon. Just having a coffee. I’m feeling really focused.

Written some notes. Did that last night after 2 shifts. I’m not doing the quiet quitting thing.

Or whatever it’s called. Well. This isn’t perfect grammar you might say.

I might say. I don’t care mate – or I’m laid back rather – or very present. In a nice way.

I care in many other ways though. Sometimes too much. But not really because caring is important.

It’s just that sometimes feeling like it doesn’t matter can be a little mind trick. I think anyway. I sometimes play mind games with myself – sometimes you can try *** too *** hard – so whatever really.

Whatever works eh. But I do care because what I do on my shifts affects other people – I make sure I do my bit – as much for them as much for the organisation. I know how to go from high on nature mode to rebel mode to professional mode.

I’m doing it for the organisation too. For the visitors. For my prospects.

For my sanity. For my routine. For purpose, a way of being active on my feet & a way to feel a connection with people.

Hopefully soon this hard work is going to pay off. Quite literally that is. Sometimes I feel I’m a victim of my own success – being a bit tongue in cheek there – because I’m a jack of all trades master of none.

So to speak (or write). I’m not a victim. I’m not wanting to have a victim mentality.

I’m defo putting it in physically & mentally. Also, in how I treat people well – this is as important as far as I’m concerned – I’m feeling a lot of positivity. Remember these posts are often capturing thoughts, feelings and mental states in the moment.

I hate to use the word I so much – but it’s my site – and it’s a way of producing ‘content’.  It’s a way of getting things down. It’s a way of being productive, proactive & positive.

OK. I’m going to be self-depreciating now. Just to make sure I’m not getting too deep into my little word – sometimes I live on another planet – it’s boss sometimes you know.

OK lad – don’t write like ya writing one of those you can do it sorta blogs – you’re just just writing loads of mad stuff down in a steam of conciousness sorta way. Yeah, that’s true that lad – I do spend ages checking it though – and throwing different aesthetics in. Yeah this bit is me talking to myself –  for a laugh.

But I can write sentences like the following:-

When walking through the park, I enjoyed how quiet it was, as well as the beautiful sight of the trees. Flippin’ eck lad. Who do you think ya are eh – just some idiot writing loads of stuff really.

Get on that sentenece lad. That English language A-level course defo paid off. Mesin, ish, I’m being tongue in cheek again.

I did write I again though. Ah well. Perhaps I did it subconsciously, maybe I did it on purpose…what’s another word similar to perhaps or maybe….I possibly did it by chance.

Those are words that can just be thrown in for the sake of it. But I mean it. It’s about putting more positivity in the world.

OK, I’ll wrap this up now. Like a birthday present. There’s a cost of living crisis now so don’t waste money on wrapping paper – there’s other issues too – it’s not just about Liverpool or the UK. Mesin – got to be careful not just write stuff a bit too out of no where – too late mate.

I’m defo high off nature here. Well. I just keep it flowing.

It’s mainly writing what comes to me but I do make concious decisions too. As well as making artistic ones.

This is imperfect. Because I’m rebellious. Apparently you can break grammar rules sometimes though – so whatever really – I don’t know.

I know in society we have a responsibility to make things better, to *** not *** except ignorance and to make sure people *** aren’t *** discriminating.

So. Sometimes I’m rebellious & a bit cheeky but it doesn’t mean I’m not very socially concious, emotionally intelligent & caring. It just means I push the boundaries, it means I’m darin’.

After learning from mistakes, I am in a positive place, and I want to keep moving forward. There’s a more than meets than the eye  – on my pretty face (only mesin, looks aren’t necessarily objective and they’re not everything) – I think it’s about feeling good & confident.

I’m going to put on my new t shirt – that I got my birthday – I sorta feel embarrassed to wear it given how people are struggling *** to *** pay bills – but I see it as a form of karma in a way to have received such nice things from time to time.

I’m in a place where I’m very much looking at what I have and not what I don’t have from a material objects point of view – I’m making big steps towards getting to where I’d like to get to – but in some ways I’m already there.

Being present and feeling like this is better than any 1000 quid coat or how many cars you have or what people spend on to buy the newest iPhone – from my point of view anyway – I’m not telling people how to feel.

I hope not anyway. I definitely try to just be sound – flippin’ eck am I still writing this post – it very much looks like it – I need to wrap this up now.

When I’m present – I don’t *** think *** about information, numbers or facts – not really anyway. It’s embracing being abstract. It’s writing whatever comes out – within reason that is.

I’m trying to modernise more, be responsible with my money, my words & stand up against the utter nonsense that is taking place in society, in the world & in general.

This part is won’t use the word _. Not saying that word that *** begins *** with _. This is definitely an outward bit. Well, nah, scrap that – I can’t think of what to put here so I’m wrapping it up here.