I’ve eaten. Bought some lettuce and made a tinned fish & lettuce meal. Made that phone call. Feel better after doing that. I have meaningful friendships/relationships. That’s a positive. It’s about being practical. Now that I’m reflecting, do I feel what I’ve written and said about the Tories was too strong? No. Well it makes me think of that Peep Show line. Racists don’t have feelings. I don’t think Tories have feelings. I mean when you choose to be that ‘ruthless’ and have ‘stiff upper lip’ then you don’t deserve empathy in my book. But this is the complexity of it. I don’t want a world to be full of hate – I don’t think it’s Tories that I hate – I think hate what the Tories are doing and the damage they’re causing. I’ve written before I’ll talk to those who have voted for the Conservatives – I don’t want to hate anyone. But my channeled anger for what’s going on – that’s channeled anger for something and not someone to clarify – is something that is fueling me and bringing out lots of creativity.

I’d rather that I didn’t have to write about having to worrying about money, food banks etc. But this is the reality of what’s going on. Also my annoyance is at how not enough people are showing enough empathy to those affecting by the cost of living crisis – there’s seemingly numerous people who aren’t *** currently *** affected by it as it’s September.

This bit is about expression, modern dating friendships, society etc. Well. I think we need to be more honest in modern society. I’m single and I’ve written how I don’t really want anything too deep at the moment – there’s a trade off to every type of dating/friendship – but this is where I’m at. I’m feeling confident and I’m open about how I’m feeling and I’ve put a few pics up on Instagram recently – this can leave you open to being judged or criticised but I don’t care because I want to be expresive and get creative – I like having fun with little puns, jokes etc. It’s not just – I’m ‘showing off’ my looks – it’s the style that goes with it. I mean to many I may not look anything special and that’s fine but I’m at a place where I’m like well whatever – I’ll utilise them more and express myself in different ways – it’s expressing myself through the bands I like as much as anything. Plus, it’s about being proactive – I just do stuff – what’s the point thinking for ages and being like do I post this or that. Obviously we have to be consider it but what happened to society – not everything has to be so cautious.

Re Anfield, I was there and the vast majority of people held the silence – myself included. Scousers are used to all sorts of discrimination – and are looked down on by some people. I can’t control what people think of people from Liverpool but there’s reasons why we feel like we feel – I’ve written about it through poetry/stream of conciousness & all. I think for society to get better we need to actually have open conversations and not always be having shouting matches. Some people feel a need to block people and that’s fine – no one needs to feel uncomfortable or to receive abuse. I follow more people than the amount of followers that I have and I’m glad – there’s people I could have unfollowed but I didn’t because I want my opinions or possible bias to be challenged – we need to see where people are coming from – let’s challenge racism and other issues. But cancel culture isn’t necessarily always the answer.