I’ve just had a jog & a shower. So I’ll stop being a miserable bastard now. It’s funny with all this ‘writing’ lark, it can get intense. And naturally I’m being vulnerable. But I’m getting a lot from it. Also as a guy I feel like I’m in two minds. Be my own guy & do what I like doing or try to go with the crowd more. Guys can be like, why are you writing sensitive things and wearing pink or whatever. You can get accused of being a male feminist or being pretentious or a dick head or whatever but I do it what feels right. It’s an outlet & I like exploring. As well as being massively socialist & passionate about what I believe in. I’ve experienced lots of different things & I’ve learnt loads through reading, podcasts etc. So I might as well use it. The thing is, I’m open & I’ve said I like the idea of dating a bit more but it’s not to say I’m desperate. It’s the company as much as anything. And I enjoy chatting to many sound people. I could have written all this & kept it to myself but I thought it can make for good content. I’m feeling good. We know how men are affected by mental health. Women too of course. So I take pride in this. But I also like talking to people. For those who know me well I’m a very happy go lucky person but I’m human & I’m liking this sort of rebellious alter ego but also in a meaningful way. I see it as a way to stand up against a lot of rubbish & get more confidence along the way. My confidence is so high now but I know I need to be humble too. No one likes anyone getting too big for their boots & it’s always useful to reflect & make sure your being sound to people. I don’t want to get hung up with politics but I know I have some responsibility to do so, even in little ways. I just want to have good interactions & have a good time really. I’ll try to get a balance. Back to hippie zoner chill mode now.