Yeah. It’s an abstract noun. ‘Experience‘. Or Experiences plural.

Flippin’ eck I’ve had loads.

After what I’ve been through, looking after my Mum (bless her & this is in loving memory of her, I think she’s with me every day on some level or definitely from a memory point of view – who knows eh – literally no one knows – let’s embrace the mystery – but her essence is there with me) – I’ve learned so much & I think it’s changed how I see society & why I’m looking at how I see so many things.

This is definitely true from a friendships/’relationships‘ perspective.

Anyway, this is my perspective and I respect people’s views, preferences, beliefs etc.

It’s made me realise how much it affected me looking after her.

I think I’d repressed things.

Well, yeah I had.

I’m now looking at the things I can work on and I am working on them.

Now I’m living my life again and Ive got a second chance in a way.

I know there’s reasons why I’ve had difficulties with things and I’m at a point where I’m making sure I take on the world.

I see it as a chance to be a male who represents & embraces his sensitive side but with a ‘tough‘ side too (I don’t necessarily mean physically).

Best of both worlds mate.

For me being a ‘man’ isn’t being violent (absolutely not) but it’s being open as you can be and as much as you want to (it’s not always easy to do so).

There’s lots of social issues around at the minute.

I’m advocating we as people be as open as possible, or as much as want to of course.

Talking or having outlets (walking, music, whatever) is vital.

There’s things that are difficult to talk about on a daily basis, in workplaces or in pubs or cafes etc.

And I think there’s times when it’s better keepin’ things light and funny.

I’ve learned a lot about how important give and take is in friendships/relationships etc.

Recenty I’ve written here how I feel, experiences, feelings.

I’m open and honest as possible in saying how I see things and how I don’t really want to be a in relationship right now.

For a while it was a bit, ah I’m waiting for the one.

Now I’m like, who’s to say I have to get married and have kids.

I’m not very codepedent.

I’m seeing what’s out there.

Enjoying my own space along the way.

I’m still a bit conflicted – on quite a few things – but I very much know what I’m about.

I’ve been enjoying many open chats with people recently, I think that’s how society progresses – as well as enjoying those chats in the right places and at the right times.

I have my Mum’s words with me everyday, I let them guide me but also I’m letting myself guide myself.

I can imagine her now saying ya a daft get aren’t you.

So I’m open and going with the flow.

I’m not against getting married or having kids – for so many people it works – and that’s brilliant.

I just think it’s good to be able to say I don’t * have to * go down that route.

I was feeling a bit rubbish about it and feelin’ bad for not giving my Mum grandkids – I worry about my family & friends – but I know I have to *put * myself first more now (not in a selfish way – maybe it’s a paradox – who knows eh) and I am doing so (plus, I can still look out for people as much as possible).

But it doesn’t change anything or help to think that way.

Apart from reflecting on why I’m where I’m at and I know my Mum wanted me to do whatever I wanted to do (within reason obviously) as long as I’m happy.

I mean I think it’s basically all energy and consciousness anyway.

Apparently science is backing that up now.

Who knows.

Who cares.

Who thinks we need all the answers.

Let’s embrace some mystery.

But be informed too.

And enjoy our feelings.

You’re meant to feel things.

I don’t want to be a robot anymore.

Well that’s another thing.

We’re basically human with minds as computers.

Anyway.

I don’t have all the answers, you don’t have to agree with me on everything (good, that’s how we open our minds) & you don’t have to feel the same as me.

Well.

I think the more open we can be the better.

I’m exploring & enjoying doing so.

Like the absolutely lefty that I am!

REBEL ✊

PEACE 😎

LOVE (in whatever form that may be) 😍