*** Some colours used (well, some people are Dyslexic you know) ***

*** Brackets are my thoughts to clarify (not always though…depends on the post or context ***

*** I’m not an expert on psychology (absolutely not) but I’ve had experiences (I’ve read about it a bit and listened to podcasts)

*** Sometimes I like psychology but sometimes it does my head in (I’m trying to make some of these pretty open but obviously I know there’s a balancing act re keeping them respectful, deep and possibly comical at times…weird balance to get that but there we are)

Self hate (sometimes it’s easier to be negative and not be vulnerable)

Self love (yeah some people hate that but I’m not arsed)

Self hate (sometimes it’s easier to be negative and not be vulnerable)

Self love (yeah some people hate that but I’m not arsed)

Self hate (sometimes it’s easier to be negative and not be vulnerable)

Self love (yeah some people hate that but I’m not arsed)

(yeah some people hate that but I’m not arsed)

Some people (some men) don’t like using abstract nouns, I mean they can be cliche but it’s context I suppose (sometimes I hate using them but putting positivity out there is good and I think they can be too easy to throw in at times *** but are a classic feature in poetry or songs or that sort of thing ***)

(I’m trying to break the 4th wall here)

(you can’t please everyone)

(I try to make sure each post has some rawness, passion or purpose to it…)

I really ruined some friendships/relationships didn’t I (emotional/rational side talking)

Why didn’t I play it more cool (think I’m a bit better at that now)

It’s about timing I suppose (rational side talking)

What an idiot (emotional side talking)

(Sometimes I feel like an idiot)

(Sometimes I don’t)

(Sometimes I care)

(Sometimes I don’t)

But I’m trying to learn from those mistakes (rational side talking)

Now I’m all cool now (possibly putting on a front)

Chill (I am though)

I’m not looking for a relationship (I’m protecting myself)

(Bit mad if women I talk to are reading this)

(Maybe this is a social experiment)

(Mesin, I mean I’m not one of those guys who does this to impress women and I don’t tell anyone about the site really…hardly ever really)

(I’m pathetic but not that pathetic)

I’ve only recently started *** telling *** a few people I’ve started doing ‘poetry’/free style writing or whatever ya want to call it (me writing any old crap basically)

(There’s so many people I talk to who don’t know I write on here)

I do it for an outlet

No one looks at it anyway

So I’ll write what I want (within reason obviously)

I’m just looking for good company and friends

I don’t know what I want

I appreciate loads of sound friends that I have

(I can say mates to sound more Scouse)

Like I’ve said before

I’ve learned to take it more slow

But sometimes there’s a spark on the night

I mean there’s someone I think I might like a bit right now but I don’t want to go there

(do I like her that much…maybe…maybe I’m protecting myself…it’s sound)

I just want to be friends

I’ve been stung before

Got my own independence (to an extent)

I don’t need necesserily need someone

Music is my love

(But you’ll have to make your self vulnerable at some point)

(Not necessarily though)

(I just want to have a good time)

Go with the flow

I’m single so

If you know I mean

I’m embracing it

And talking about it more

(Let’s not be repressed as a society)